In short: it's local, personal, and just the way I feel most of the time...
subdued |səbˈd(y)oōd| adjective
(of a person or their manner) quiet and rather reflective: I felt strangely subdued as I gazed down at our tiny, dozing infant boy.
subdue |səbˈd(y)oō| verb ( -dues , -dued , -duing )
overcome, quieten, or bring under control (a feeling or person) : she managed to subdue an instinct to scream at her judgmental relatives.
